Music Lover's Emancipations

2011-07-05T18:17:00.003+08:00

大学で日本語を勉強をするかどうかわからない。大変だろうと思う。
そして、大学で日本語を勉強をすれば、日本に１年住んでなくてはいけない。日本に住むながら、生物学研究をしなくてはいけない。日本語にあまり上手ではないから、日本での生活は大変で不便かもしれない。

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生物学か地理学か生物学と地理学を勉強しますか。
大学か外で日本語をべんきょうするか。
ロンドンかマンチェスターかサンフランシスコかロサンゼルスで勉強をするか。
決められないから、心配するね！

2011-04-30T13:38:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, we saw the Councillors do the AYLC mass dance "Do Ya".

Never thought I'd miss AYLC so much; not after hearing that song and seeing the enthusiastic dancers did all the memories started flooding in:

The late nights in school prepping up for aylc
The rehearsals in the audi as a panelist, with teachers scrutinising your poise
The nerve-wrecking moments onstage with Minister
The briefings with the various comms
The strict standards expected and imposed on us
The late-night action plan preparation and revisions
The impending fear of last-minute changes and miscommunications
The sheer tireness
The fac trainings and briefings
The logistical nightmares
The struggle to host the lantern-releasing
The last-minute learning of the OC dance
The crazy photo-taking session
The uber fun and high lcd afternoon
The writing of that long goodbye message on the Ops Room board
The awesome cheer from the OC over the phone
The last-minute rush to pack for India trip
The reflections typing over email
The sending off at the airport
The flight to India

Busy and harsh as it was, I never thought I would miss this event. But now, looking back, it has helped me grown a lot and has left much wonderful memories, of council, my brothers and friends, and certainly the escape from academics. But what really counted was that I may never get to experience something so awesome ever again. And that's what made aylc special, unique.

And I hope you guys feel it too, and make aylc 2011 even greater. Cuz we started it off and now it's time to share the experience. Wish I could be part of it, but I guess it's time to move on.

Back to biology!

2011-01-02T18:17:00.006+08:00

"Start of Something" by Cast of Britannia High

2010-10-09T01:00:00.010+08:00

Sometimes I take my hat off to Petra, my mentor.

She could be so calm and patient with us when we mix up those confusing DNA sequences or get fooled by all that complex molecular biology.

She could be so accomodating to suit her work schedule to fit ours so we could have our lab sessions when we could make it.

She could be so selfless by helping us with some of the techniques when we were away for exams or when it was convenient for her.

She could be so tolerant of all the nonsense and nuisances going on around her.

She could be so nice not pulling a black face when we failed to meet expectations or where away and left her to help us during peak periods.

She could be so humorous even though we were slow in our work and seemed utterly clueless at times.

She could be so accomodating to laugh along with us and contribute to our crazy jokes and suans.

She could be so intellectual to make biology sound so idiot-proof and to partake in those sophisticated philosophical discussions.

I wished I could possess those traits of hers and be a lot more tolerant, smiley and accomodating. Perhaps then I would be happier, as well as those around me. And really, I shouldn't get mad at the littlest things or keep trying to find faults. Or I'm just making matters worst. WAKE UP, ALAN!

P.S. And on a side note, I hope you'll wake up too and do your job. Cuz I'm really sick and tired of having to do yours. Sometimes you seem to care, but it's not the care we need. And when we need you most, man, I wished you were there for us. And of course, you'll never understand the pile-ups we are going through, nor the stress and hard-pressed time we're having to deal with. Let alone the emotional and mental bearing on us all. C'mon, can't you see how much we're going through? Can't you see how much we risk losing or have lost just to help you, when you could continue without having to face all that harshness? Isn't it time you helped us or showed some concern? Or maybe do your job better? Step up to it, we know you can. (And stop wasting your time on ridiculous, self-profiting pursuits, please). And yes, you can't just drop a bomb as and when you feel like it. Or evade ever so often. Save the guilty claims if you really care.

Oh and just for the records, do not get mistaken... this is not a post about PW.

2010-09-24T20:58:00.003+08:00

as inferiority fills your heart and mind, you shy away, question yourself, feel defeated.

but in contentment, you may seek solace.

think of how you were so small and unassuming, and how far you've been today.

it's unexpected.

and think of how you're naturally disadvantaged somehow.

it's not your fault.

it then becomes easier to bow down and accept it.

for it becomes more painful if you can't.

and you hurt yourself, and collaterally, others.

self pity?

self contentment.

for beauty lies in contentment and a heart that's true, that's good-natured.

and it's what would make you triumphant, what would make you deserving.

2010-07-22T23:11:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow, let's shine.
It's our day, it's our stage.

Go, Council!
It's the start of a brand new day.

(though it's the start of the end of me)

2010-05-16T10:14:00.002+08:00

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me
For sure
That's what friends are for

For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

- 'That's What Friends are For' from the movie 'The Fox and the Hound'

2010-05-13T21:17:00.003+08:00

Please don't tell me it was a success, or that it wasnt my fault.

I know it is my fault. And after all these, I feel even worse.

It's a classic example, an example that will be passed down over and over again, mentioned repeatedly.

And I failed. In all possible sense of the word.

I felt really hopeless and useless. Am I really that bad? Apparently yes.

It has caused so much hu-ha and saga. It's troubled others. It's ruined reputations. It's highly doubted. It's inefficient. It's poorly managed. It's poorly done.

And so I really feel apologetic and humiliated. Embarrassed.

Is this the example I should set? Is this testament to my abilities?

And so I really want to get everything settled and close the chapter.

And I want to do it myself. For I dun want to feel any weaker or hopeless. Nor do I want tongues to wag even more.

It's my mess, I'll clear it.

For I've caused enough damage and harm.

I know you all care about me, I know. But this time, let me be the one to step up to reality alright? For I am pathetic enough.

2010-03-31T21:49:00.002+08:00

I need time...loads of time

To catch up on my tutorials
To complete my essays
To digest my lesson content
To indulge in mugging bio xD
To memorise and study syf script
To improve diction
To work out
To keep track of projects
To support my Council buddies
To plan the trip

Argh, this is bad.

Bro, know that you've got us no matter what. Let us go through it with you. Don't face it yourself, for we're a team and we're forever.

2010-03-14T00:59:00.005+08:00

Was clearing my cluttered Desktop today. Came across the PA video we made in Year3, with all our photos and comments as PA Y3s 08.

We looked so happy, so united.
The pictures were simply blissful, it's as if they could smile on their own.
And they seemed so pretty.
The comments were so true, so affectionate.
"What does the future have in place for us?"
It struck me hard, that line.

Coupled with the fact that Council's changing yet again, i cant help but recall the prev AGM for 30th SC.
As a PA batch, we hugged. Tightly.
And never quite as tightly before.
It felt like the end of time.
I was heading for Council, they, for PA Club.
And tears just fell.
Badly.
Even the next morning, and the morning after.

That blog post of misery and remembrance,
Of their support for me and the move.
Of the pain we all feel.
Of the pain we know will come.
Of the tee that represented who we were.
Of the comfort that tee gave us.
It felt so nostalgic, so...
Intense.

And they're meeting next week.
Senior's farewell's also next week.
We agreed to meet up.
They asked me to join em next week.
I've got SC camp and el.
Is this what the future has in place for us?
For "I miss you like crazy"

2010-03-07T14:55:00.002+08:00

Hey all Year4s!

SCECE (SC ExCo Elections) nomination forms to be in by 6pm TOMORROW in the Library. Do remember to submit them, and be part of a team like no other.

Take up the challenge.
Lead the change.

2010-03-06T23:48:00.003+08:00

Thanks all for a great birthday on Wed, be it the wishes at midnight and throughout the day, the gifts, the excitement, the songs, the time, the cake and more! Really appreciate it and certainly loved it (:

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Living life
Life in the fast lane
Not that bad
No we can't complain
Who's to say
That we won't keep it real

Hold on tight
Don't you dare let go
Now's the time to let the whole world know
You can shine bright but still keep it real

Did you ever think your dreams would become a reality
And all you did was just believe

- 'Keep it Real' by The Jonas Brothers

2010-02-23T18:47:00.003+08:00

Loads of stuff to plan for. Gotta watch my commitments.

I really dun wna go for nrp symposium... feel so unprepared. Poster, script yadada.

And bio isn't as easy as people think... it's pretty challenging too. Memorising alone would get you nowhere by the way.

Econs' pretty interesting though. Can't rly say the same for math but well, gotta take it anw.

Lots of stuff to do now... if only friday would quickly come, then can have cca. Pretty fun.

But at least there's council to keep me going i guess. It's just nice to be around em. Idk why, but it just seems happy, whether it's for work or play. Or simply just slacking around. I guess that's what pretty much drives me to Council Room almost daily after school, even if it's 5 in the evening.

And I have this sudden urge to start annotating proposals. Seems pretty interesting and constructive. Over a cup of coffee and lounging around some area with scenic views of the sea. It'd be a great way to nua with work. If only I had the time and money. (And resourcefulness to find such an area)

2010-02-21T00:30:00.004+08:00

Yesterday's steamboat by RVSC was really great!
Gratz org comm! You guys did great.
Cheers filled the air, as did repeated 'yum-seng's
As did laughters and the rhythmic pieces performed
Praises were aplenty too, as Mr SMS toured the area
Hearts were warmed over a meal together, over the purchase of candles of hope
We must do this again next year okay?
Council's beginning to diversify, beginning to improve its presence and impact
So let's not lose momentum yea?

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Yesterday was a shagged-out day, with no breaks till 2pm, 9.5 rounds of running, countless times lugging tables and chairs, high energy scenes and profuse perspiration. But it all paid off, esp for steamboat with the success met. Still remember hauling chairs with terence from hall to SL, struggling with pretty-sharp-edged tables from canteen to SL, experimenting with less painful ways of carrying tables with yi thong (next time, flip it over and carry with the rounded edge down), tidying the area, shifting everything back till late, learning (and embarrassing myself) how to chong1 shui3 with geri and yujun, chatting on 198 with chi kan and yi thong. Tiring as things were, it was a great experience. And it's moments like these that bring us together, that compose our memories of Council.

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Today was great. Had EL which was pretty fun but tiring, be it the exercises, the 'impalling', the rehearsals. But it was nice getting to try out different roles and getting things done. Gotta memorise script by Fri and do vocals daily. Sounds pretty interesting to be honest. Need to rly get those lines in and rly get to know the script.

Went to Mr Gan's later to bai nian with excos. His house is nice. And it was rly great gathering in an informal setting. Played Wii Tennis with hester and Wii Boxing with yi thong and chi kan. It was hilarious:

"ta wan dao mei li, wo xiao dao mei li"
- yi thong on video-ing us on Wii Boxing

And xiaohui told us that in China, they dont practise giving oranges, but rather, they give more expensive stuff like alcohol, tonics and such. And we thought oranges were universal, esp in the origins.

Rushed to Adrian's later to bai nian and catch up with icep usa 08 people. It was great getting to meet up after so long and having good laughs and all. Yes, jj and tkl, i owe you guys one! Sorry to turn down last minute, but we will hang on soon ya?

That pretty much sums up today. Left with loads of stuff to do: studying for lecture tests, completing tutorials, completing el tasks, starting projects, attending meetings, symposium preparation, application reviews etc.

Finding our similarities' fun!

2010-02-21T00:03:00.005+08:00

They're streaming in.
You can't stop them.
Because you're lauded as an alpha.
Or rather, we're lauded as alphas.
It's building up.
It's increasing.
The pressure and the expectations.
But more importantly, the chances to bond.
We'll live our lives together, spend our time together.
Demands are high, the critics sharp.
Internal. Intra. Inter.
It just gets bigger.
We'll bond for sure; we all want that.
We all know we will.
We're excited over it.
We will stay together, bros
We will make it together
And we'll emerge stronger and closer than ever
& that's what we all desire badly
Given our affinity, cooperation, closeness.
Which we all agree to and feel strongly for.
As we build our brotherhood, our image.
It's gonna be intense, and I look forward to building it.
Definitely, certainly.

2010-02-13T21:17:00.007+08:00

It'll be a great journey, a great team, a great feeling.

It's so exciting to think of it:
The time we'll spend planning
The time we'll spend executing
The time we'll spend getting clothes for the occasion
The time we'll spend dry-running
The time we'll spend before and during the sessions
The time we'll spend on the bus ride home
The time we'll spend chatting and sharing problems
The time we'll spend on our crazy plans
The time we'll spend in the hostel, living together
The time we'll spend staying up together
The time we'll spend receeing (pun intended)
The time we'll spend studying and discussing acads
The time we'll spend against the common antagonist
The time we'll spend supporting each other
The time we'll spend abroad on trips
The time we'll spend hanging out together
The time we'll spend having meals together
The time we'll spend holding meetings
The time we'll spend holding things together
The time we'll spend inspiring others
The time we'll spend projecting our image
The time we'll spend working on that image
The time we'll spend high-ing
The time we'll spend suaning each other
The time we'll spend receiving great news and words
The time we'll spend impressing upon others
The time we'll spend building and practising our synergy
The time we'll spend creating our legacy
The time we'll spend living our brotherhood
The time we'll spend appreciating our affinity
Together.

I know I'll miss all these when things draw to a close, but I know I'll seek joy in having been part of it all, being part of a crazy and great band of brothers. And the exciting (though ardous) journey is set to commence soon! And we're all set to immerse ourselves in it and I'm all set to enjoy every bit of it, be it bitter, sweet or sour (suaned!) for it's something I'll hold on to dearly and truly (and I really mean truly), with all my heart and soul.

And we really must go abroad together! Anywhere (best if it's somewhere far and rare)! It'll be an unforgettably fun, crazy, blissful, high, bonding experience. The feeling would be intense and that's what's gna be great!

Plus, it was nice to know of all the plans we have in store, but more importantly, it's nice to see the motivation and dedication we all have and the goal we share. Being with people of truly the same interest and motivation really is an amazing feeling. And the passion we share is strong and infectious. It was also great to see how easily we gel in together and how crazy we can get together, not forgetting our ability. We must develop this further, be it for work or play. And hopefully we'll grow alot closer too! This team is really something I believe in, a highlight I look forward to, a motivation I live for.

2010-02-09T19:31:00.002+08:00

In a world where things get complex, and change and degenerate continually,
sometimes it's nice to stay pure and innocent.
Focusing on what will bring you further, on what really matters and counts.
So sometimes, being on the sidelines (or bleachers) really isnt that bad after all
For with it comes opportunities to observe and learn from the players,
yet being able to rest and devote time and energy to the more pressing issues
For they will start off a chain reaction that will eventually get you there, perhaps even with better returns.

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Beginning to like doing econs, which is a good thing for at least school isnt so dreadful and I wouldnt keep regretting not doing geog. That aside, bio is great too...interest I suppose. And GP is pretty interesting. That pretty sums up what I look forward to in school, on top of Council and EL.

& I still don't get why scholar leaders gta take part in PESA.

2010-01-30T23:11:00.005+08:00

An attempt at tumblr-ing on bs (just for the fun of it, so don't read too much into it):
Via: Joycelin

2010-01-30T21:39:00.008+08:00

A week's over and done with.

JC life's been really busy and rigorous, with early wake-ups, dizzy bus rides, crazy timetables, council meetings etc.

But at the very least, I'm glad to have friends there to liven things up, be it class, council, el or my usual bunch of great friends.

Lessons-wise, obviously the workload is building up (and pw hasnt kicked in). There are (some) boring lessons, difficult (math) tutorials, think-you-understand-but-then-again-not-really (econs) lectures/tutorials, pretty interesting (bio) lectures/practicals etc.

EL's on fridays and saturdays, which means I cant go for tennis lessons till maybe, May? Hmm, how am I gna answer to Coach? Feel darn guilty, and I will certainly miss playing tennis!

Oh, but el would be fun! & I needa improve on improv. HAHA.

That aside, yst was PA dinner. Sad that we cldnt meet up with the others at bukit timah (cuz 174's always full). Ended up at subway JP, where we realised the effects of the i-thought-it-was-over recession and had funny chats.

Today was dept meeting. Attendance was pretty disappointing, though it's definitely more than half lah. Lessons learnt were fruitful, insights were alright, ideas were crazy (and mostly, good). Dept lunch was spent at pepper lunch (i bet our jnrs were obssessed over pepper lunch!) de-boning my unagi, talking about obs (our year4 juniors are high over it), career aspirations, jc life (that's what happens when you have jx around. Haha, insightful guy) and all.

And the best part was that I had a chance to nap after I reached home... from 4 to 7.30. Damn shuang considering the shag-ness (?) after a whole week of school. But I'm still tired... And staring at me are:

1. GP Homework (article review and compre)
2. Math tutorial & assignment
3. Chem tutorial
4. Econs tutorial (to write everything out in prose)
5. EL character play and interpretation (psychologically speaking)

I want more crazy chats, rants and laughs over frappes. Hilarious and insightful. Strengthens the bond, and makes me realise just how similar we are.

2010-01-25T21:02:00.003+08:00

The strength to carry on. Believe in ourselves. To transcend changes, to build a better tomorrow. We all feel weak, afraid and emotional. It's tough. But together, we unleash the strength within, to be a hero to others, to be a hero to self, to be her hero.

"It's alright, it's ok. I'm so much better without you."

2010-01-21T22:14:00.016+08:00

Change over continuity.

The losses that change has incurred, history has shown.

Change - A practical move or an idealistic pursuit?

Nevertheless, some things are for sure.

Affinity. I can sense it. Somehow. And I look forward to working together. For it's the start of something new, something great.

Synergy. I can feel it. One complements another who complements the other who complements the next who complements the first. Room for negotiation. A powerhouse, in short.

Capability. I can see it. The ability to strive, to improve, to realise goals and transcend changes. A revolutionary way of doing things. A chance at salvaging.

Impact. I can picture it. A force of determination. A beam of inspiration. An exudance of confidence. An image of strength. A feeling of unity. A rush of pride.

Success. I can't imagine it. I'd like to, but I can't. Perhaps partial success?

The brotherhood, the stringency, the passion, the conviction have got me all excited, but the rest breed uncertainty within.

Plans were made ahead of time in anticipation and preparation for improvement and an injection of hope & results. Perhaps even for an unprecedented change in impression. But in this new dimension? I wonder.

Change over continuity.

Change - A practical move or an idealistic pursuit?

(Rest assure though, I will nevertheless continue to strive regardless of the future, trust me. For it's been and will be a big part of my life, something I hold on to dearly.)

2010-01-18T21:01:00.004+08:00

Okay, so I'm staring at a set of math tutorial questions, solving solving solving...the same question. I think I'm getting there. Seems correct. Brilliant. I'm wrong.

Tmr's double bio! :D bio ftw!

And I hope econs would be the right choice.

JC academics.

2010-01-17T11:55:00.004+08:00

First post of the new year. Well, at least 2009's over. To think about it, 2009's been a year of many downs and few ups. A bad year maybe? Well, at least 2009's over.

Orientation's over, which is kindof sad yet relieving. Sad cuz sth you held on to so dearly and spent so much time on has ended. And it leaves a void in your mind, in your life. And with that void, the mind starts to wander. To think of stuff, impt or not, stupid or not. Secondly, it's relieving because the mad rush and high pressure are now over. And the response was indeed btr, as was the entire concept. Infinite thanks to all JC Councillors, esp the Org Comm ppl who have been working so hard to make this possible. Not forgetting our class facs who worked tirelessly and our kidnap 'ghosts' for their innovatively scary make-up! Game masters too! And of course, the actors - hilarious!

Well, it's kindof late but here're my resolutions for 2010:

1. To love econs. Life would suck studying a subject I do not rly like or am afraid of.
2. To learn to appreciate the Chinese language, and improve my Chinese (even after O's)
3. To do well for syf, and have fun in the process (improve my acting skills)
4. To devote more time to Welfare and raise the standards of our projects
5. To devote more time to my bro, friends and family, instead of being buried in work all the time
6. To be committed to tennis and attend lessons, in order to improve
7. To do more community service...it's about time I learnt to share and appreciate what I have
8. To help around the house with chores and such
9. To keep my desk neat and tidy
10. To read widely and appreciate (the more popular, for a start) literature
11. For 5E to be a bonded class
12. To learn to cook tom yam (so I can have em anytime)
13. For RVNCC to improve standards-wise and in terms of the spirit (apparently, I cant seem to forget ncc, though I'm no longer a member)
14. To spend more time coaching my brother
15. Continue to pursue jap & geog

So as you can see, it's mainly to do with time management and being there for others - sth I've neglected in 2009.

2009-12-24T00:24:00.012+08:00

Tis' the season to be jolly. Really?

Ocean deep.

Yet another trough. A trough among the crests of christmas.

Christmas shopping.
Strolling the nights.
Photo-taking.
Restaurants.
Gift giving.
Together.
Dream on.

Tis' the season to be jolly.
Think again: it aggravates.
The pain, the loneliness, the inadequacy.

A bustling crowd, a lonesome heart.

2009-11-30T02:01:00.019+08:00

Sometimes, the past hurts badly.

To be reminded of what went wrong.

To think of the people you miss.

To see the ugly you.

To feel so upset with yourself.

To have the negative emotions of the past engulf your heart, leaving you struggling for a consolation and for someone to be there.

And yet not be able to get over it.

It's not just about the past, but the whole ideal that the past reminds me of. An ideal I've wanted to badly, I'd keep trying to get it in my life.

But this ideal, is not at all simple. It's hard to get, it's rare (to me). And in the pursuit of this ideal, I've fallen into those pits of unhappiness. Numerous times over. It could be due to failure, it could be due to envy, it could be due to disappointment.

But it's caused these swings of negative emotions. So much so I've grown to like them, to indulge in them.

What's wrong with me? Why am I clinging on to this whole ideal so badly, so much so that I'm what I am today?

Why?

To prove to myself I've changed? To keep up with the Joneses? To show everyone I'm capable? To achieve bliss in my life? To realise and maintain what I long for so badly? To overcome these negative emotions? To make me feel complete? To pursue a true emotion?

Perhaps all of the above.

I've made mistakes. Mistakes I regret deeply. Mistakes I wish I hadnt made.

Sometimes I think back, if not for those mistakes and oversight, perhaps my life would be a lot of more blissful today, a lot more complete. And perhaps I wouldnt feel this lonely or this horrible sense of regret and longing.

Most imptly, I could feel a lot happier, knowing I've got that one thing I've longed for so badly.

But am I capable enough?

I know, it's a stupid thing to some of us, to think about all that I've missed out on, to think of such issues now. Sometimes, even I feel ashamed for thinking about such stuff. For they're nothing glorious, nothing showy. Perhaps even ridiculous. And so I avoid seeking consolation and solace, for it's simply ridiculous and embarrassing. One or two of you may know, and I'm rly glad to have you in my life. Really. For all the support and advice.

But when we really get down to the root, I'm stumped.

They're just my wants and my urges. And if there're so many people out there without it, and yet are surviving so well, then why should I feel this way? Why should I get all down over something as ridiculous as this?

Because I truly feel for it with all my heart, or because I'm desperate for a fulfilment?

Why do I keep thinking of this? And why can't I get it off my chest?

Others have done it. But why can't I? Can't I be stronger?

2009-11-25T00:32:00.007+08:00

And so today marked the end of our el nov sessions, which were my first round of sessions.

It's been a jolly good 4 sessions and really, I'm enjoying it so far. Who could frown upon the high warm-ups, high-energy games, and crazy scenes? And of course the hilarious members and coach of the club.

Essentially, the amateur dramatist, or so I think I am, spent these 4 sessions experimenting with emotions, levels and the sorts. And of course gelling in with the others! It has been a great learning experience and a great break from the monotony cast upon me by the diabolical existence of the nrp report. Kindof liked getting to know the various forms of drama (theatre of the oppressed etc) and picking up some dramatic techniques from the others as we went on. And I really liked how sessions are always so informal, which starkly juxtaposes the regimentation I went through the past 4 years. Not that I hate regimentation that much, but it's a fresh take on the term "cca".

That being said, I've still got loads to learn such as crafting my emotions (so as not to irritate others), getting into character (like really really get into it), thinking out of the box (so that I can contribute to the craziness of "space jump"), not breaking out of character, improvising on-the-spot, getting used to performing in front of familiar audience (stares at yong zhi) and way more.

And I'm looking forward to sessions, for the hilarious moments, crazy ideas, informal interactions, important feedback and creative takes.

Oh and for the fun of it, for these 4 sessions, I've tried my hand at various characters of which the notable ones include a silent assasin (pun unintended), a dead body (how often do you get to lie flat and motionless in el?), an almost-turned-rich-taitai-gigolo artist, an initially-straight-turned-gay fashion designer, a hopeless dad, an irritable teen, a teen who sobbed excessively to the point of pure irritation, a guy who had his bath towel falling off his waist, a son (whom having been portrayed my me, appeared to suffer from severe anger management issues), an aggressive commoner caught in the apocalypse and way more.

Indeed, drama transcends time, space and people.

Note to self: Monologues are more towards soliloquys than physical acting

2009-11-25T00:03:00.005+08:00

Last week was 4a chalet. Wasnt that bad actually. Pretty fun.It was great to know people still cared enough to put it all together. Really. To be honest, I was kindof prepared not to have one, judging from the apparent lack of outbursts of emotions or tinges of misery on the last day of school, which btw, was rly disappointing when you gotta sleep beside ck during sc camp and see him being smitten over class gifts and merchandise. *bouts of envy, glaring at gifts*

Anw, back to chalet, we had bbq where my bbqed-to-0.1s-precision chicken chop debuted. How did I do it? By checking if it FELT delicious, by subjecting it to the relentless stabbing of my almighty, awe-inspiring satay stick. It was goooooooodddd... "pbb the best chop in the world" I know I'm modest.

After that, we watched paranormal activity, which was this everyone-thinks-it's-horrifying-though-I-found-it-turning-off-but-nevertheless-a-potent-depressant-cum-sleeping-pill. It was impt alr? Cuz I had el sessions the next day. I rly dun understand why they had to use a personal camera's pov to film the entire film.. cuz it's rather chaotic and looks amateurishly cost effective. Or maybe I was too tired after el sessions, which btw were omg-ly hilarious.

After tht, we went biking, had a little drama and suffered some ooooouch in the all-time taboo region after hours of bumping and forced suppression onto the bike seat. At least I did.

Scrambled for a spot on the land-scarce beds where we set up our squatters and caught some snooze in all sorts of curled-up-limb-numbing positions we could contour our dear bodies into. Hilarious, but who cares? So tired alr.

"Ra-la-lay!" It's 6am, as we scrambled to the DE main toilets to shower, during which I decided to blend in and prance around to check out my rather-incomplete tan (well, our society frowns upon nude tanning, you see. but that shldnt entice you infer that i would even if it were allowed.) and was pleasantly surprised that I no longer resembled a lobster from that fateful sunbathing session on the pristine beaches of the eye-candy-infested outcrop of sentosa. We then rushed to school and I went for sessions. Fun.

And so that wraps up 4a's chalet. Pbb the last chalet we'll ever have. Or maybe not. I'll leave it up to your crystal balls to tell me. Though I'd like for one next year.

2009-11-21T13:58:00.004+08:00

& so I rcvd chow's email on nrp report. Trust me, it was terrifying and pressurising. And funny too. Funny in that a 6-page report could strike me so hard. I mean, all I need to do is a 6-page report and here I am getting all worked up and stressed up.

Why? Simply cuz of a lack of motivation. I think this project, like most (if not all) other projects I've received, do not contribute to the current repository of knowledge (no improvement to science). So if the symposium judges were to ask me that, I can just thank them for a participation cert on the spot.

I dunno why, but nrp's getting on my nerves. Maybe it's the nature and the subject matter of the project. And I may or may not be paranoid, but I hope my supervisor isn't overseas (like back in India or sth) or else I'm dead meat. Man, I really need some results and guidance too. Thank god the report's due on 8 Jan, which is before school starts, or else I will just go and die alr. Indeed, April `10 shall be much anticipated.

And really, I hope this buay song thingy is only for this time. I hope it's not a sign of a larger issue that I'm unaware of, sth like a looming distaste for research.

Or maybe it's a natural human emotion cuz of the nature of research... the ups and downs. And I happen to be hitting the trough now. It's high-time for some crests.

That aside, gd luck to all the rv nrp ppl. I think most of us (if nt all) are struggling badly.

2009-11-19T17:53:00.003+08:00

class chalet. night cycling. bbqs. subject combi. council meetings. student lounge planning. student lounge painting (maybe). y5 orientation planning. y5 orientation meetings. council outings. welfare outing / chalet. welfare dept meeting. mrs law's retirement cd. pub dec sales. y1 regi day. rv bigwalk. orientation 2010. mass dance prac. furnishings. el sessions. upcoming syf. improvisation. theatre of the oppressed. tableaux. tanning. swimming. running. tennis (MUST DO WELL!!). tone up. bowling. sbj improvements. movies. starbucks. starbucks job (maybe?). sentosa. vietnam (halong bay!) trip. tuesdays with morrie. animal farm guide. tom yam goong tastathons. cheesecake indulgences. sushi DIYs. chicken rice. kueh idk-what. xmas outings. catch up with (self-professed) bro. band concert (tbc). nrp report. nrp logbook. nrp meetings. ikea shelves. ikea glassboards. icep usa 08 reunion (please?). organise academic work. discard useless notes. gp report. self-study nihongo. pawn genetics. own a math. ko electrolysis. get over geog-craziness. try to love econs. disney. ngc. discovery t&l. discovery. sbsp. wiki-hop. birthday dinners. xmas lunch. class allocation. nyaa.

2009-10-15T23:40:00.003+08:00

& today, I've broken records, set new milestones.

But most importantly, I've fulfilled a promise.

A promise which gave hope, assurance, comfort, a promise deemed impossible by many.

& so I'm glad I've reached this.

Or I'd have lost hope, lost face, lost it.

Not to mention the all-important final chance.

2009-10-07T11:25:00.006+08:00

Bryce: "Bio ftw!"

Austin: "Bio is ftw? Then what's Physics?"

Alan: "Flip the letters around."

Austin: "LOL"

The things exams do to us.

& I was just kidding.

2009-09-26T01:47:00.000+08:00

"Is there an easier way into your heart
Must be some ways where we can make a start
I am for real
And I'm just a step away"

-"Life is Good" by Nathan Hartono

2009-09-20T16:25:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was Youth Science Conference at NYP.

And that means that SMP has ended.

SMP's been a great experience:
1. We got to learn stuff we normally wouldnt learn
2. We got to really challenge ourselves
3. We got to meet really fun people
4. We got to suan WongWong
5. We got WongWong an award
6. We got to bond together
7. We got to dream big (at least for a significant period of time)
8. We got to have immense fun throughout. Yes, immense.

But of course thr was the frustration and boredom when there wasnt a breakthrough nor progress. And some arguments and disagreements along the way.

But that aside, I think SMP's been a phenomenal journey, right from selecting our projects, desperately submitting proposals when we failed to ballot, to dreaming big, to dinner-ing at NUS, to the 1-week attachment, to the poster design debates, to poster judging, to yesterday.

And so, I really do hope we'd stay in contact and cherish an experience like no other. For it's special, rare.

Argh, WongWong's so elusive on fb.

2009-09-20T16:13:00.002+08:00

Tags replies:

19 Sep 09, 15:22jess:D: HAHA coz you dun look like you can cook:P k jk! JIAYOUS! (:
alan [jess:D] Tsktsk, what kindof PA mate are you? Later I cook sotong then u know. HAHA!

19 Sep 09, 01:18weiliang: Yea, yr motivation to mug is really much more powerful than mine.. All the best in mugging:D
alan [weiliang] Yea I guess so. Esp since it's an emotional conviction and stimulus. Haish, I really hope my physics would make it. Thanks man. Best of luck to you too! Do well then we can go crazy with Welfare after EOYs!

18 Sep 09, 20:28Joey: Hello, really like your creative skin.
alan [Joey] Hey there fellow Councillor! Yeah, I think it's real interesting! & unique.

15 Sep 09, 21:07Adrian: hahahaaha, nice skin!
alan [adrian] Haha, thanks. My friend found it. Btw, continue to jy for GP!

15 Sep 09, 20:50weiliang: Lmao, your skin is uber imba. Managed to find all your links using "trial and error", that is, hovering around the picture:)
alan [weiliang] Haha, thank cynthia, she found it. Haha, shall see how many people gna tio pawn!

15 Sep 09, 20:27Mystery Girl: Omg u cooked dinner? Haha pro man.
15 Sep 09, 20:24Mystery Girl: Hihi!! Nice skin. took me 3mins to find which hole was tagboard lol. I veh blur de >.<
alan [Mystery Girl] Hey thr, lol. 3 mins' alright, at least you found it. Haha, yeah I cooked. See Jesslyn? People so encouraging. Tsktsk.

14 Sep 09, 21:49zimin: yay.. i found it... lol.. got clues ma
alan [zimin] Haha! Yeah, got clues on how they look like. But well, you found it!

2009-09-18T21:49:00.002+08:00

Really, it's no longer about the GPA or the marks.

It's about something deeper, something more permanent, something graver.

It's the affirmation and the confidence you give someone

And not just any someone

But someone who has impacted you greatly, someone who has sacrificed loads for you

And it pays to know that it's the last chance, the only chance

To reach that goal and give the person a peace of mind, a sense of satisfaction, a sense of accomplishment

For it just aint about the marks anymore.

But emotions and pay back.

2009-09-11T19:56:00.005+08:00

"After some time
I finally made up my mind
She is the girl
And I really want to make her mine

I'm searching everywhere
To find her again
To tell her I love her
And I'm sorry 'bout the things I've done

I find her standing
In front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looked so happy
In her wedding dress
.
.
.
Against the wind
I'm going home again
Wishing me back
To the time when we were more than friends."

- 25 minutes by Michael Learns To Rock

2009-09-09T17:24:00.002+08:00

Girl, I do hope it wasnt referring to me.

If it is, I'm sorry but I guess this was what you always wanted?

Or at least the impression you gave me.

If you know who you are, answer me.

For I'm sick of playing the guessing game.

2009-09-07T23:13:00.003+08:00

It's been ages since I updated:

1. SC INVESTITURE: WELFARE ROCKED THE STAGE! With our hilarious video and fantabulous dance! Haha, thanks Welfarians for attending the early-morning rehearsals and taking time off on Saturdays! You guys rocked! Indeed, Welfare, Welfare, LET'S DO IT! :D The synergy in it was simply incredible, people.

2. OUR CLASS HAS A NEW FAN! Yes, after months (yes MONTHS) of perspiration and reminders to the office, we finally got an incredible one fan from them! Amazing~! Though the back people cant rly get th breeze. Hmm.. maybe 5 months later we'll get another one! Brilliant.

3. CELEBRATED NIECE MEGAN'S FIRST BDAY ON SUNDAY! It was at this mediterranean restaurant at the St Regis. I think it's called LaBreeza or sth. Great food.. the lamb chop and tomato soup rocked! (No I'm not gluttony) Happy birthday Megan! 1 year on Earth and I hope you're enjoying it! Haha! Hope to see ya more often in future.

4. SMP POSTER JUDGING ON WEDNESDAY! Haha our gorgeous poster's finally printed and script's written. Hope we'll do well on Wednesday. It's at NYP... so far... But well, Wong Wong's gonna support us so thanks in advance! She's damn hilarious.

5. PRINCESS PROTECTION PROGRAMME. Watched it on Disney just now cuz well, it happened to be Ch33 tht was on TV. Must say it really delivered the importance and charm of inner beauty.

6. PRE-EXAM TIPS BY 31ST SWI. The Pre-Exam Tips Board is alr up in RV Canteen. Drop by and read the tips and feel free to doodle on yours as well. I have done so, so why not you? Share your tips and stand to win prizes!

7. I COOKED DINNER TONIGHT! Cuz Mom had to run some errands (and I didnt wna do chem). Haha, wasnt too bad. Dad says it's nice so yeah, woots!

8. I SHALL ATTEMPT TO SLEEP BEFORE 12 TONIGHT. I've decided to listen to you. :D

Photos next time. Speaking of photos, I want those Welfare photos! Just whose camera was it? Hmm...

2009-09-06T11:08:00.002+08:00

Enjoy:

2009-08-29T13:23:00.001+08:00

WHY SHOULD I DO SO MUCH WHEN YOU DON'T BOTHER?

NEXT YEAR, DO IT YOURSELF.

I'M DONE.

YOU DON'T KNOW HOW DISAPPOINTED I AM.

FOR YOU DONT CARE AT ALL

2009-08-13T22:02:00.004+08:00

Few days into 31st Council and the work mounts. It's like a new subject: you stay back or reach earlier to attend lessons (meetings), sort out admin stuff at home (homework) and submit assignments (proposals). There is even a practical component where you go out and execute events. And of course, the daily dose of council work.

And it's not very easy coordinating 34 people anyway.

Maybe this is what Council should be like. So that we can produce the highly desired, but expected, results. Idk. But it's tough.

I know I shouldnt be saying all these, but I just needa vent it out.

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I screwed physics test: 30/45. Yes, you may cheer if you're delighted by my setbacks. But in any case, though I always seem to condemn physics, deep down I know I cant ignore it. Perhaps it's cuz it's my responsibility to study hard or wtv. But for an easy test, this wouldnt suffice. Wtv, go ahead and rejoice if you want.

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And I forgot to pass sw the class write-up for year book. Honestly, it was pretty hard to write anything out. No bonding or spirit. Weird isnt it? 1.5 years and we're still like that. Maybe the high occurance of cliques, or an unwillingness to accept others could be the cause. And so I question the purpose of even writing it. I mean, you wna be unique in year book right? Then dun write lah. After all, there's little to speak of. When people dun bother.

Maybe I should write an ugly poem or write-up, one that exposes the ugly apparent side. That would be a true recount. Largely true. And everyone can relate to it! How cool is that! Tempting. For that's reality. Usually.

Dun believe? Tell me, when was the last time we ever felt as a class? And yes, i mean A CLASS. Go on, scratch your head. Try to think of sth other than the one and only P.Semakau outing. Maybe I'm ignorant of stuff going on, but apparently, we arent A CLASS, 38 PEOPLE AS ONE. So why write?

2009-08-08T09:03:00.003+08:00

Nat day:

I thought it'll be screwed. But it wasnt. Great job everyone. Thanks for all your efforts and crazy ideas. And zihigh-ness for P2BS yst. Pizza treat!

AGM (SWI):

It's been a crazy year.

We came in clueless about what to do with the new structure. Uncertainty and awkwardness in our hearts as we attempted to make it a success.

So on we went wih projects like Welcome-back Banner, PAD, PET, Umbrella loans etc. And with each project, we had our hilarious and high moments... be it fattening Barney, designing posters, overcoming embarrassment or desperately painting umbrellas. But with each encounter, each moment, it grew stronger and crazier. And then came Welfare dinner, where it all culminated over a piping hot steamboat and funny videos.

And as I wrote those messages, viewed those photos, printed those certs, I know it was a great experience. And like most of you, i dare say: "I MISS SWI!"

For it's here we created memories. Memories we'd cherish. Experiences we'd look back upon. It was indeed heartwarming to know those leaving or staying really loved SWI and would wna continue being in it. So here's to 30th SWI!

PA:

It was tough saying goodbye. Really. I knew this day was coming. In fact, I think we all knew. but nvr did I expect I'd feel this sense of nostalgia. Pissed, throwing tantrums and all. If not cuz of circumstances, I'd stay.

But nvrtheless, jiayou for PA! Do PA proud and stay bonded yea? For it's what PA meant and will mean.

And as I look back on those tees, those crazy photos, that expensively adorable bear, that pencil case, that video, I'm glad to know I was part of a crazy band of friends. Etched in my mind. And of course, I know I'd miss out on way more. But best of luck to yall in PA!

Morning duties, backstage duties, BBQs, batch lunches, suanings, confessions, it was all part of the experience. An experience like no other. For the people were special. The stories unique.

"I miss you like crazy, even more than words can say"

2009-08-04T23:19:00.010+08:00

Damn.

Screwed.

GG.

Dead.

Gone.

Wasted.

But thanks to those concerned.
& maybe I should hush in public.
Though it's usually beyond control.
When emotions take charge.
And you just needa vent it all out.
For it's a crazy endeavour.
And in the near future lies the period - the full stop.

Enthusiastic as I should have been
Encouraging as I should have been
Optimistic as I should have been
Strong as I should have been
I'm not what I should have been

I could be what I should have been
But how can I?
Tell me, answer me, guide me (if u know the context, irony unintended)
For it's a crazy juggle
Pretty much a circus if you'd think about it
Where I (or some) take centre-stage - the clown.

Maybe I'm not cut out for this in the first place,
for this is not where I'd rather be.
An illusion I've been living in the past.
Disappearing slowly yet surely.
Inching its way through your mind and body
Revealing the truth before your very eyes
Killing all lofty imaginations
Thrashing you down to Ground Zero
Where perhaps is where you truly belong
For this isnt where I belong.

So maybe I should forfeit all
And head back where I started
Maybe I'd find happier days there.
And even a piece of mind.
Not to mention additional freedom.
I'm seriously contemplating that.
For even I, am doubting my abilities.

Or maybe, a change of environment is all I need.

I know I should segregate them
But thing is, it isnt that easy when the pressure mounts
Call me unreasonable, dramatic if you'd wish
But you'll nvr know how I feel
I've lost the freedom I should have
The happiness I should have
The wit I should have
The pride I should have
The time I should have
The me I should have

An incident is all it takes to reveal years of illusion.
And today, I'm revealed.

2009-08-03T21:11:00.004+08:00

The vancouver vacation's gone. H1N1, no leave, busy days. Oh wells. I really wanted to go. Maybe next year? Hopefully :D

That aside, received back my math assignment on pbb. Sucks. 50 - 1 =39?! I must have been outta my mind. Cynthia, mental sums lessons?

Anw, happy birthday Mum~! Hope you enjoyed the dinner.

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Your shattered image. It spooks.

Thank goodness we're apart.

2009-07-29T22:18:00.001+08:00

Why are geog trips always so expensive?!

Gah, like tht forever no need go alr.

First was $3K London, then now, it's $2.7K NZ.

Gahh, wht happened to all the subsidies?

2009-07-26T15:24:00.002+08:00

It's the new craze on campus! Visit us at the Canteen thru 6th August!

Be part of it; let us take your photo (solo, duo, or group, take your pick).

For more info and photos, search "P2BS" on Facebook. Join us as a fan too!

Show you're Proud 2 Be Singaporean today!

2009-07-21T23:13:00.004+08:00

Perhaps I've been living an illusion all this while.

I really have no idea if I should go on.

The motivation's gone. The essential's forsaken.

Just for a pursuit.

A pursuit so surreal now.

Perhaps I should slow down.

Maybe even return to ground zero.

For it's a crazy life.

2009-07-11T19:29:00.004+08:00

Hey all!

On behalf of Fang Qi, Yen Cheng and Alicia:

Please support RV at the Science Busker's Fest at Science Centre Singapore TOMORROW! FREE ADMISSION (rmbr to tell the ppl at the Sci Busker's counter at the gates that you're supporting River Valley)!

I've gone down today and it's really not bad! So do go on down and support them, as well as VOTE for them! You may not know the 3 of em personally, but let's do our part as RVians yea?

Hope you'll be going (Yes, you can pull your friends to go with you too!)

It's the LAST DAY for voting btw. & trust me, they need your vote.

2009-07-09T23:57:00.011+08:00

Hey, saw this on Youtube:

It's my primary school (& no, dun insult the name. I'm proud of her.). Yeah, i was surfing the Net for National Day music for Nat Day Celebrations this year and chanced upon this.

While I admit I do not know these peepz (they entered after i graduated according to bro), this video certainly caught my attention (also cuz they dun usually upload vids on Youtube).

Yeah, it may not be very impressive, but it certainly evoked loads of memories. Of crazy music lessons (we didnt dance; just sang), freezing harmonica prac, hilarious harmonica prac, laborious red cross prac (for talentime 02,03,04), nerve-wreaking BRPS Idol auditions and everything. This was the place. This was the uniform. This was the scene. The music room hasnt changed, has it? & yes, this vid bears quite some resemblance to talentime prac.

Didn't think I'd value my primary school this much.

2009-07-07T19:42:00.004+08:00

"Everybody's looking for that something,
something that makes it all complete."
-Westlife, Flying Without Wings

Emoshytz, damn it.

Sick and tired of everything. And it just piles up.

If you still have your blazers with you, please return them at once.

2009-07-05T18:35:00.007+08:00

"Bare Essentials of Safety from Air New Zealand"
- The new safety video for 737-300s, flown on Air New Zealand's domestic routes.

Noticed anything peculier? Take a 2nd look ;P
Creative and engaging presentation style, I'd say!

2009-07-03T23:45:00.012+08:00

"We don't always get to choose, do we?"
- What if Fairy Godmother dumps you into a tragic story with undesirable characters?

Let me tell you a story.

Once upon a time, there lived 5 friends: smart smart, work work, stare stare, roll roll, gee gee (no hege hege) and suan suan, collectively known as "the poor souls". They were dumped into a tragic fairytale by Fairy Godmother despite profuse objections.

In the fairytale, there lived two characters. The first one's called Dumb dumb. As it's name suggests, dumb dumb's dim-witted, if not just blur about everything. It also has this amazing ability to pretend to do things, just like its side-kick, slack slack!

Slack slack doesnt have an ability to pretend. It doesnt need it. It just doesnt do anything. Hence it's name. But they're both similar in tht they dun do stuff.

So dumb dumb + slack slack = GG

Therefore, dumb dumb and slack slack are causing problems for the now-frustrated poor souls as they raced against Tragedy, the monster.

But thing is, dumb dumb and slack slack dunno how bad the situation is. Or rather, they have a poor ability to judge severity (pbb due to dumb dumb's dim-wittedness and slack slack's laziness). They dun think. Period.

But of course, the poor souls try to warn them but to no avail. And so, the Tragedy unfolds. Upon seeing the ugly face of Tragedy, the monster, the wires in dumb dumb's mind snapped in fear and dumb dumb became well, dumber. Meanwhile, slack slack's muscles worked their mitochondria out, churning out as much as possible. Miraculous, but true.

But till this very day, they have yet to triumph over Tragedy, dragging the poor souls down with them.

Moral of the story: Fairy Godmother may not always be right in putting you in the right fairy tale. In your next tale, choose wisely. And insist.

-The End-

2009-07-03T19:35:00.006+08:00

More PA outing photos I kope-d frm jo's facebook acc (Oops!)

Haha, was linked from JJ's Wall.

Group Photo! Hopefully, we'll have full attendance in future!

Hmm who's that? I wonder...

Nice!

2009-07-03T18:08:00.004+08:00

1st week of school and I'm back to the screwed up routines and school life.

Hols homework (how ironic) overloaded me. And as if that was insufficient, stuff around me are screwing me up. Why? Why does it have to me?

Selfish as it sounds, why should I bear the brunt of your doings?

Damn. Damn. Damn.

But on the bright side, lessons end at 2 daily 'cept mon when it's 2.20. But even that isnt much of a help when you have to stay back almost daily to complete, or at least try to complete, various chores, of which not all are solely your responsibility.

That aside, at least now, I wont be that packed. And hopefully, from next week onwards, my schedule would be more fruitful:
Mon's NRP day (fortnightly)
Tue's CCA
Wed's SMP day (though we have a one month break courtesy of Ms Wong
Thurs' CCFSC Peer Tutoring.
Fri's CCA

Speech Day's postponed. CCA's cancelled. H1N1's taking its toll on the school.

Anw, did I tell you that I actually kinda like lang arts lessons? Oh pish posh. Not very interesting, but certainly satisfying. And rather challenging too. Successfully uncovering the meanings behind those words really gives your brain a good workout and your heart a well-deserved feeling of satisfaction. Damn, life would've been much btr if I had chosen lit over phy (Not tht phy is useless for i've learnt quite some applications). Jiawen agrees with me on that!

Oh yeah, I doubt I can ever become a canadian citizen in future cuz it means surrendering your sg citizenship which yields heavy consequences and means pangseh-ing your homeland. Maybe PR... maybe. Cuz it sounds real good to live there. But on the other hand, perhaps I'll drop the idea when I grow up, but for now, I'm still yearning for my vancouver vacation (alliteration unintended)!

2009-06-21T17:33:00.010+08:00

Yesterday, my aunt & uncle came down from Vancouver.

After their 7-day quarantine (in case), it was really nice meeting up with them over lunch (chilli crabs!), chatting and laughing like mad. He's hilarious i tell you. They've been away since i think i was 4 or 5. But i know they really doted on me when I was young so it was heartwarmng getting to meet them again.

And after chatting, I really wanna go to vancouver! Haha they described it to be a really nice place. Weather, scenery, places and all. Air tickets, please? Then we can get to meet up everyday and tour the area. It would be a nice change of lifestyle, and a good place to enjoy a slower pace of life, which i desperately need. Apparently, vancouver's one of the most live-able cities in the world! Haha of course lah... almost free healthcare, inexpensive utilities, gorgeous views, nice apartments and great city environment. And they were saying we could apply for canadian citizenship cuz we were related. Tempting... Pbb in future when I grow up or sth, i'd do so. Maybe.

And not to mention, canada's geography is really interesting according to Uncle. Be it climate, geology etc. He's been describing it occasionally (I suspect he loves geog too :D)

Chatted with Kenneth who has since migrated to vancouver. He noted my nick and started chatting. He pretty much said the same thing about citizenship and school life thr (Which is way more interesting and manageable). Maybe when I grow up, i might move thr.

But as for now, I WANT A VACATION TO VANCOUVER! Dad, mum, shall we go after this whole flu thing blows over? Let's tour the area, chat, laugh, joke, shop and drive over to newfoundland, with aunt and uncle!

& of course, let's have more meet-ups/outings with aunt and uncle. They're a loving, refined, humourous couple, i'd say.

Pics later!

2009-06-21T17:16:00.004+08:00

PA Y4s '09!

(Credits to: anhouror-two.bs.com)

Two fun-filled saturdays in a row!

Last sat was PA outing. Not really full overall attendance but our batch hit full! Woots, finally! So we went to play Pool at CSS @ BB. My second time playing i think. My first time was in HQ. Yes, HQ! :O Cuz we had to entertain the us/uk/aust/nz/yadada cadets during Inbound.

Okay, that aside, i think it was quite okay lah.. teamed up with shao wei and managed to score some balls, though i missed the right-in-front-of-the-hole kindof balls. Utter dumbness at play. Epic fail. But it was great while it lasted (and seeing shao wei shout in disappointment and disguest when I missed such balls)... Sotong must play next time yo!

After that, jj, wc and yl came then we went bowling. Haish, didnt hit 100. 89 sucks; not even 90. And no strikes! Only spares. Xue Qiang pro! Striked idk-how-many-times and passed 100!

Haha after that, went to some zi-char place for dinner. Apparently, zi-char stalls have GSS promotions too - Free bowl of dessert for everyone! Lol! After that, took loads of pics then had prata before going home.

Let's do it again!

2009-06-20T00:46:00.007+08:00

Read through the list of nominees for Council.

And I counted.

It took less than a hand; less than 5 fingers.

It took 4.

4, tht's the number of Y1-4 candidates originally from SWI, down from 10.

Imagine that.

I'm not pissed. In fact, maybe it's my fault. My fault that SWI-ians lost interest in Council, that they had insufficient exposure, that they disliked Council. And so they refused to run for Council. Maybe that's the case. In fact, the probable case.

But maybe it could be that they tried but didnt get through. The 9 nominations (excl mine) i wrote, and only 4 came through. Dun blame yourselves. I respect your choices and your attempts, but i know i gotta work on it if i get into 31st. Disappointed. That's the word.

To those who didnt get into the interviews or pass it, I'm really sorry. I know you tried your best but I sincerely do hope you'll join us in 32nd. But given my capabilities, the fact that that thought would come to your mind remains an uncertainty.

2009-06-20T00:22:00.005+08:00

Congrats Part Cs, on your promotion!

For guys, Zhangyong, you shined for RVNC, Mr Trainfire Best!
I think we've got about 6 or 7 2SGs (someone, correct me if I'm wrong cuz everyone's been giving me diff figures). But anyway, a great great job to yall, and of course to the 3SGs cuz I know you guys did your very best too, I really do. So nonetheless, great job, Part Cs, you've surpassed us - a sure sign of an improvement! Let this pass on in years to come yea?

For the girls, astounding! 6 awards including a course best - Vivian! Great job and surely, RVNC's proud of ya. Hopefully yall continue to improve as rapidly as you did the past year yea?

Honestly, thurs was rather crazy with yude, samuel, chuan xun and qiao wei filling me in. It's nice to know that youre one of the first they share the good news with. And it's nice to know they had fun during the course. And it's of course nice to know they tried their very best. Didn't think i'd get such a nice response but you've made my day (night, rather)!

Well, it's been a year and i'm glad to know that the standards, at least for spec course results, have improved. It's nice to know it all paid off. Thanks for all your efforts, specs and cadets alike. Guess it's now time to let go. It may be a week later, a month later, somewhere in between, i don't know. But what I do know is that it'll be tough, though I always make it out to be a desire.

2009-06-19T22:20:00.001+08:00

WE

ARE

PROUD OF YOU,

SAY,

WE ARE PROUD OF YOU!

2009-06-17T22:16:00.005+08:00

The following content may cause discomfort to some viewers. Viewer discretion is advised.

And now, for the greatest shock in physics history.... that has created shockwaves across the highly populated Republic of MSN, and possibly the freshly colonised Colonies of FB......

ALAN'S ACTUALLY READING COLLEGE PHYSICS!

"Where's my inhaler?"
"I need CPR....!"
"AHHHHH!!!"
"What has the world come to?!"

Apparently, it's cuz he has to read up for physics video and nrp literature review. Shocking as it may be, he has commented that he will read on in spite of tired eyes, mental fatigue and utter boredom. A case of desperation? Maybe. Stay tuned for more updates on this extraodinary phenomenon. A rarity indeed.

2009-06-17T17:04:00.008+08:00

Done with chem and bio. Off to do NRP lit review. Gosh, 7 pages to be churned out.

& idk why biology's getting drier. I nearly died doing ecology assignment, after enduring through weeks of plant studies. I srsly hope A lvl bio would be better.

Mon was gmac meeting. He says it's okay for me to go to arts. Expect an explosion when I really enter it. Duh, he snatched away a geog book i was reading. Anw, i doubt i'd do arts.

2009-06-16T13:54:00.004+08:00

It's been a day since the Part Cs went for Spec Course.

Feel kinda bad nt being able to see them off cuz of exco mtg. But I really do hope they are doing well. Idk, it's like in school, you die die also wanna train them up and stuff them with content, but you just dunno if they really learnt. We all preapred them so much just for these 4 days. And all of a sudden, everything that used to be so distant, is right smack in front of you.

I really do hope they are coping well and probably even aceing through the tests. And of course, I hope they will put in their best into everything and pull through victoriously. And for the few ones, the spec course PT test is my greatest apprehension. Push on, even if it's just 1. For self, for RVNC.

The specs have tried our best to prep them up so I do hope everyone's (including the Part Cs') efforts will pay off as we herald in a new batch of Sergeants, filled with a sense of accomplishment, enthusiasm and duty, 2 days later.

2009-06-12T20:19:00.003+08:00

Went to the PC Show with David today.

But before that, we went swimming. Needed to exercise after slacking the past week. And I left my trunks in the showers. Shucks.Damn it.Wth._ They were new! Like it was my first time wearing them today. And I thought they were nice. Sh*t. Damn pissed. I'm so gonna buy a new pair of the same design asap, unless there is a better design out there. Damn,damn,damn.

PC Show was crowded as usual. Saw some real good bargains but well, i dun really intend to change any of my gadgets so yeah, sheesh. And it's a great disappointment that Lumix nor Nikon set up booths this year.

Went to starbucks at vivo after that and shopped around for clothes, books and toy-watching.

Damn it, I liked that pair of trunks. Sh*t. Oh, maybe I can get white trunks this time. Maybe not.

2009-06-11T17:12:00.007+08:00

Chem.Comm was great:

2nd!

All the long rehearsals and studying were worth it after all! Kinda liked the whole experience, from heats through now. Competition trainings couldnt have been more fun(ny). Doubt any competitions would be this great, with serious mugging amidst hilarious rehearsals. Rly like to thank mdm ong and ms khang esp for their utmost dedication and support! :D

To all RV teams, great job! Everyone put up a great fight for sure! Hopefully in '11, RV would win the champion award. Talkshow? Maybe.

Initially, I was rather skeptical that we'd get top 3 cuz ya, we cramped in so much content that it might be difficult to absorb. Turned out, we did great in spite of a whole row of red-blazers and a camcorder. Great job, team!

Now that Chem.Comm's over, it's GMAC. I need a break from script writing. Jiayou everyone!

Had CCA today for the future specs. Wasnt all to satisfied with their performance but I guess I gta trust them to do their best on Monday. Hey guys, if you're reading this, make sure y'all put on your best for RVNC. We'll be counting on ya ;D

Saturday's PA outing! Bowling, batch photos, dinner, catching up! So looking forward to it. Hope everyone can make it then.

Alright, back to Biology!

2009-06-09T00:51:00.003+08:00

Back from hiatus!

Not really hiatus. Rather, couldnt find the time or mood to blog.

NRP's getting worrying with my project deviating from the original scope threatening to not be acknowledged by NTU, acc to mr chow. And prof miao's not emailing me his appeal letter. Shucks, I really hope he didnt forget to write to the Uni. Haish.. it's rly worrying me..

That aside, ive been sleeping past 3 the past few nights.. just cldnt sleep. Cynthiang, dun follow me. Tonight, I promised her to sleep early bt i guess I cant. Gta go thru my lines and prepare for tmr's prac. Wed's Chem.Comm and I really dun feel prepared. Maybe it's cuz ive been editing the script too many times that we dun hve proper reh (sorry guys!). Oh well, wallowing in self-pity isnt gna get me anywhere so I guess I'd btr pick myself up and push on! For the goal, I'd better and I'd want to.

Jiayou everyone!

2009-05-29T00:23:00.003+08:00

To those concerned, thanks loads. I'm fine now.

Yes, monday was an extremely emo-ish day. I think yeesing's referring to me on her blog but tht's nt the main point. I guess I'm btr now. Gta be more resilient, as ms thz said earlier on in the year when i tried to sneak a nap in class.

Welfare's launching Umbrella Svcs Project tmr, by yong zhi, zimin, qian hui and weely!

The team rocks I tell u. They came in early and went off late for 3 days. Why? Cuz they hand-painted the umbrellas and varnished them using a tiny brush. Hardworking & meticulous, they've been great people! Oh, sotong the entertainer and geri the artist too. Must really thank them all for all their hard work.

At this juncture, I'd also like to thank the Welcome Banner & PAD/PET ppl! You guys did great, initiating new projects to improve student welfare.

Alright, gtg to bed. Drained now.

2009-05-25T19:49:00.007+08:00

"One thing led to another! & dot dot dot!"

Sense of responsibility? Oh yes, indeed.
Promise? Oh right, that.
Dedication? Oh and that too.

I must have been a fool.

Whatever, maybe I expect too much. But tht's just an excuse.

& dont worry, I wont ask you for help unless you offer.

& so I tell myself: "Resilience, Alan!"
But who am I kidding.

2009-05-23T18:03:00.005+08:00

How do you tell someone (s)he's wrong?
How do you tell someone you're unhappy with em?
How do you tell someone that without hurting?

I guess that has been one of my greatest problems. I'm afraid what I say might offend others, pressurise others and such. And so, I choose to shut up and solve the problems myself. But ever so often, I meet with little success, if any to speak of.

But if I change, perhaps I'll be greeted with stares and annoyance, possibly not greeted at all.

Perhaps that's the price leaders have to pay; an essential sacrifice for effectiveness.

Or perhaps it's just me.

Sorry for the reflective tone.

2009-05-22T23:14:00.009+08:00

I guess I've bitten off more than I can chew.

Perhaps it's time I slowed down and clear the mess.

I used to be so enthusiastic, taking this, choosing that, but I guess it's taking its toll on me now.

Screwed. Whatever I thought I'd manage well is screwed. Honestly, I feel bad towards those who have had to bear the brunt of my poor management. While some things are still salvageable now, they arent all that easy anymore.

What used to be easy isnt so straightforward anymore. What used to be reliable just isnt so. What used to be inviting simply irks.

But who am I to blame other than myself right? Yes, I know I can blame others but if it would not be justified for if I hadnt stretched myself this much, I could very well have managed it btr, without others' help. Then I wouldnt have to waste time waiting and get it solved.

Work piles up. Breathers melt down. I really would like to blame and rant and mutter but I guess it wouldnt be right if I did so for after all, it's my fault that I am what I am today. This state of affairs, is perhaps all my doing. I shld have been more discerning.

If I were more discerning, I'd have more time to focus and excel, more time to tire myself out, more time to chase for work, more time to deal with the sh*t you gave me, more time to cool myself down.

Idk, perhaps it's time I switch into overpower and settle all these, my creation or not. Somehow, post-exam period should be fun-filled (save for the getting-back-results-and-suffering-a-near-faint-experience), relaxed and all that.

But it doesnt seem so.

When I get home, the routine goes: switch on comp, open Words, type with left hand, eat dinner with the right, figure out problems, look at clock, express shock at the midnight indication, frantically save and shut down, go to bed, toss in bed, sleep at 1.

I don't know how I'm gonna ride through this, but I'd better. Why? Cuz I dont want him to crumble, her to be disappointed, them to be angry and you to evade.

2009-05-12T15:59:00.005+08:00

Exams are officially over!!

*Pops champagne*

Overall, they were okay though i screwed my humanities. Math paper 2 as well. Apparently, Mr Tan and company decided to make it tougher. Oh well. Was super unsure about all my answers, esp when y'know, you dun get a whole number, or you cannot prove sth?

Had SMP later. Ms Wong was nice, as usual. Haha. Actually, we are done alr, but just that it wasnt very erm, novel? So we had to extend it. Next few weeks will be hiong Java and Chem.Comm (our topic's downright tough, but let's jyjy!)... Went to Vivo for lunch and got birthday presents for friends, with zq.

Yes, you must be wondering why I'm home now and not out with my class. Simply cuz i have been having stomachaches since sunday and i needed to get home by 3 to see a doctor. Haish. It's gastric i was told. It still aches now after taking the medicine. Hasnt been absorbed i think.

& worst, Gastric means i need a controlled diet, which means less coffee :O and less tom yam :O:O Damn.

That aside, cca starts this fri. Yes, to your deepest horrors for some of you. "No break after mid-years!" some may grumble. That's so true, but oh well. Smiling will do it :D It's not that bad, really.

"Jiawen, stay tough and ride through this!"

2009-05-10T22:56:00.004+08:00

Heyyo,

Happy mummy/mama/ma/mum day!

Woke up at 11am this morning. So early. Yawns. Crawled outta bed and got ready to go down to Vivo w Marcus to get lunch to celebrate mummy's day for mummy.

Initially, I intended to make sushi but well, it's exam period. (& I still think sushi counts as cooking)

So we went down to get Subway set meals and sushi from MarketPlace. Oh yes, if you wanna get some off-the-shelf good sushi, try MarketPlace. It's awesome. I always get it from there.

After that, brought it home (albeit missing a chance to go to PageOne to get a card cuz of the sushi which threated to gas us). Had a great lunch and luckily they enjoyed it. Esp dad cuz he didnt really like all these sandwichy stuff. But I guess it changed his mind on it. We had italian bmt (slurps!), subway meltz, teriyaki chicken and chicken breast.

Time check now: 11.13pm.

11.13pm?! Did I just miss The Queen on okto? Damn.
& I'm still procrastinating over math, which kinda leads me to think that if I end up failing math, it's just me.

"I just gotta resist."

2009-05-08T20:51:00.002+08:00

& today spells the end of most papers.

Left with math paper 2 on tues.

Overall, the exams were not really well done. Idk, just felt very unprepared for MYEs this year. Maybe cuz i've been putting in a lot less effort during term time. But it sure was a crazy ride:

1. Physics started to make sense (tho i think i'll still just-pass)
2. HCL was relatively easy. Best is O's are of this standard.
3. Math was less intimidating while Chem provoked quite some of thought
4. Geog & SS were simply screwed. Geog! ):

And so was the preparation:
1. Chem in a day
2. Bio in a day
3. Physics in 2 days, of which most of it was done sitting for 3hrs straight at Gloria Jean's
4. Bio induced a tantrum in me
5. First attempt at paraphrasing for Geog

As for now, I shall spend the rest of today (and maybe tmr) relaxing before psycho-ing myself to LOVE MATH (?!) and study for it. Stop tht shocked expression.

2009-05-05T15:53:00.002+08:00

(At the top of a slope)

A: "Roll!"
(Pushes B downhill)

A: "Gee! Hedge!"

*Crash*

B's head bears the pressure when the force spread over the area of his little cranium.

& just like that I rmbr 2 formulae. Amusing eh?

P.S. An hedge is a line of people or objects forming a barrier.

2009-05-03T17:42:00.004+08:00

WHAT A COINCIDENCE!
To think physics made sense to 2 otherwise completely no-link people at the same time. :D

That aside, Happy 14th Birthday to my brother, Marcus!

Good luck for MYEs everyone! 10 days to freedom!

2009-05-01T23:34:00.010+08:00

Heyyo, happy may day! & Happy 17th Birthday Chern Yi!

Have you been good and visited the sc blog/ivle for the PETs? Hopefully you did cuz they rly do help.

Anw, went to IMM with PA Y4s 09 (except sw who was happily away in m'sia.) and mojojojo (i mean, jo). Studied at various spots incl Mos Burger (before getting politely chased out. Yes, politely's the key word), the noisy n warm Sky Garden (Vivo's more conducive), Mac's and Subway.

Apparently, jess found Sky Garden conducive for it gives her btr conc. Not for me I guess. I mean, how to conc when you get influenced by small children to play this let's-fight-with-water-bottle-swords game. Hey, not childish; young at heart.

Bought food and purposely ate slowly so that we won't get chased out. But cldnt rly do it as Mac's cuz we felt bad since so many ppl were waiting for seats.

Subway was woah. We shared a subway meal and my GC became Jo's canvas:

See? So nice right? I bet even if you're a math genius, you can't do it this well (yes, no eqns needed). & art triumphs over math!

And then it went into Yujie's hands:

& math triumphs over art. Yes, he used y=mx+c eqns for the lines. Argh!

Anw, I must say that it was rly fun studying with them though not as productive cuz of the environs. Looking forward to tmr's session at Vivo's Moonbucks/Sunbucks/Mars Bucks/Mars Bar/Venus Flytrap! I mean, Starbucks.

P.S I'm amazed at my hp cam's resolution, cuz it turned out hideous on the hp screen. Shi4 chou3 de lor.

2009-04-30T17:14:00.009+08:00

Self-study Day 2. & I'm done with SCS. I'm moving on to Matrices & omg, Trigonometry! Gawdd...

Went to Bryce's to study yst. Haha spent most of the time doing phy which was rather useful cuz otherwise, i would have refused to do phy. Discussed some SCS too, before leaving to go Vivo with zq for this Big Blue exhibition by NGC. Ps to make you wait. The exhibition was okay lah... it wasnt a real baby Blue Whale (like duh) but the model was intricately carved and quite life-like so good job on that. Catching Big Blue on NGC later at 6pm!

Went into Nat Geo store and boy, was the photography exhibition great! I forgot the name of the photographer but it was of a nature theme. Spectacular panoramas and rare sights. Go catch it! And I remember this comment: "You've fashioned seeing into art." I guess that pretty much embodies the ultimate goal of photographers. Well obvly the photos were great cuz it's NatGeo afterall.

Oh and I saw this great book called The Biography of Earth or sth. It's really great. All the geog stuff and awesome photos. It costs $75 so i'll be grateful to whoever's willing to throw money to get tht for me. And yes, there's this $300 geog tb cum atlas. Brilliant. Bt the price's speechless.

Pretty much mugged SCS today and had the usual mental argument over the dominant case. & the carrot cake was delectable. Random.

Gtg for now, all the best for MYEs everyone! I'm sure we all wanna do our best and get that edge over others. So, do visit http://rvstudentcouncil.blogspot.com/ or IVLE for tips on exam preparation. (Sry for the shameless self-promotion, as quoted frm mrbtan, but please do have a look.)

"Irresistible, I must resist, I must."

2009-04-24T23:29:00.005+08:00

I'm beginning to pick on grammatical errors.
I'm beginning to find creative expressions.
I'm beginning to love precise words.
I'm beginning to analyse essays.
I'm beginning to acknowledge literary devices.
I'm beginning to scrutinise pronunciation.
I'm beginning to be an English freak! :O

Had NRP Launch just now at ADM Auditorium at NTU.
Tht building really is cool i tell you. The architecture was uber modern & simply aesthetically gifted. Go see it if you get the chance. That glass facade, that green roof, that curved roof.
All the RV teams (I think) clinched a Gold award for NRP 2008, congrats~!
Now it's our turn to immerse ourselves in the NRP experience I guess (as the Dean said).

Tmr's ISSF meeting and studying with PA at JE Lib. Long day so I guess I btr go to bed. *Yawns* Nights everyone!

2009-04-23T17:50:00.005+08:00

Heyyo! Back from school. Finally lah... so tired.

Now, I'm sipping my 2nd cup of coffee as I type this thing for that caffeine dose to keep me awake so I can complete the following:

1. Biology Reproduction (of plants) Assignment. I hate plants. Boring.Wordy.Complex. I never ever do well in plants assignments, do I?

2. Math Rev 2. Not bad lah, havent died so far. Yes, I'm actually doing Math. No choice lah...

3. Physics Assignment 6. Ms Tan wants to collect it tmr and I have no freaking clear idea of how to do DCs. In fact, DCs are so complex that the chinese scholars spent half a year studying it back in China. Simply complex (ignore the oxymoron).

4. HCL xiao ping lun. Sianz.

5. SS Essay Outlines. Not bad lah. Humans mah...

6. Geography Assignment :D :D :D (I shall do this last, as my motivation)

Alright, back to studies now.

Wally's gonna get a new name! Haha now we have another plush toy in class bringing the total number of residents in 4A Home of Plushies to a grand total of.... FOUR! We aim to soar to greater heights in the near future and increase growth by ten-fold by the end of fiscal year 2009. Thank you for your support for the past few weeks.

2009-04-22T21:06:00.010+08:00

Heyyo, today was:

- Enlightening: LA was really great. Now I know how to write arguments that are more cogent :)

- Woah: Math lesson was drony as we revised Trigo. Haha so you see, I was copying equations frm the whiteboard in my sleepy mode. And then, I jolted! I actually copied "sec x" as "sex". Luckily mr tan didnt see sia. Cuz I was drifting off to la-la land and i was hurriedly copying the equations.

- Adorable: Giraffe and Apple are simply irresistible! Haha no wonder yeesing and tingxiang always battle over the custody of Apple white the guys keep passing Giraffe around. At least now lessons arent tht boring.

- Wasted: Ran around setting up for LT5 which apparently has a spoilt PA System. Brilliant.

- Yummy: Mr Tan treated zq, ash, ms wong (our smp mentor!) and I to Lerk Thai at nus arts! Haha the memories of GC as we passed that LT and that road. And I recognised one of the GC organisers! Spammed mr tan's money with food and coffee from Olio's. Thanks alot, mr tan! :D

- Successful: Our switch board worked! After all that troubleshooting and homework (of which zq did one himself. SORRY!), it was finally done! Now we can move on. A marked progress indeed.

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"Eh please, there's a limit to stupidity."
"I wanna go to Kyoto with y'all!"

2009-04-21T22:36:00.018+08:00

Here to post some pics:

ACJC Geography Quiz: CHAMPS! :D

NUS GEOGRAPHY CHALLENGE!

Geo - Ad Filming: Kampong Buangkok, Yes, it's the last surviving kampong is SG. The zinc roofs, wooden walls, open spaces, lush greenery.

Free-roaming chickens in SG? Only in K. Buangkok.

A rarity in modernised Singapore.

Geo-Trail prep trip to URA Gallery: That's a 3D map of Singapore. It's so detailed, we can all identify our own flats.

Interesting transportation display. Looks like some high-tech toy.

NUSGC Finals: Prepping for Geo-Trail at FASS LT11.

After Geo-Trail: Stop hiding your disappointment for Geo-Ad. Hmm... maybe we did well for Geo-Trail?

Geo-Trail Top 10: Team photo was flashed on the screen amidst elation in our hearts. All that running and shouting was worth it after all!

Outside Geography Department at NUS. With Mr Hor (above) and Ms Or (below). Mr Chan refused to take photos ):

Love: Geography!

2009-04-17T22:39:00.003+08:00

"Congratulations! Your team has made it into the finals."

How elated I was when I read that SMS from Mdm Ong! It was indeed a wish come true for me. After which came msgs from zq and zl; msgs of elation and anticipation. Perhaps I cant describe how happy I am tht we got in but I'm really grateful for this continuation.

Haha, team, let's go all crazy and daring as we did. More so this time! Let's be super animated, super crazy, super high, super innovative, super entertaining, super knowledgeable! Like you all, I really look forward to this all over again; the scripts, rehearsals, jokes and acts! Ecstasy rush! (nt literally, mind you)

"jiayou jiayou and bring that championship to RV!"
"Lets cont 2 work hard!"
"Lets go get top 3!"
"must rock th stage and get tht trophy!"

Yeah, let's do as we said and relive those crazy moments. :D RV Chem.Comm jiayou! (This goes out to the two Mandarin teams too!)

& I'm looking forward to meetings already!

2009-04-15T20:54:00.003+08:00

Heyyo, just finished VJC Science Quest today! We got Merit (which really is 4th actually).

Sounds good? Well let's just say we didnt hit the standards our seniors set. But nevertheless, great job guys, really.

Honestly, I was apprehensive about getting into the 2nd round cuz well, I skipped so many questions (just in case I lose marks for answering wrongly). But together, we did it. & honestly, under all that pressure + those ultra difficult questions, it really isnt easy. But hey, you pulled thru and did your best. If it were me, I might be stressed out or sth. And so, I dare say, I'm proud of that 4th place you guys won us.

Don't worry too much and dun be disappointed over it yea? We may not have reached the standards our seniors did but that doesnt mean we have failed right? We succeeded in our own right and well, at least now we have valuable experience to share with our juniors so they can win in future!

Actin. Myosin. Striated. Nephron. T-Cells. Ulna. Lumbar. Acetylcholine. Sarcoplasmic recticulum. Equilibria. Kp. Kc. Ka. Kb. Kw. Ksp. Buffer. Ionic Product. pH. pOH. Ethanoic acid. Le Chatelier's. Lambda. Alpha. Beta. Gamma. Ionizing power. Deflection. Half-life. Counts. Carbon dating. Freezing Project Room. Brain drains. Crash courses. Thick notes. Unlimited questions. Intensive training. Early morning. Late nights.

Indeed, we have gone through so much so let's celebrate the process and learn from the it.

That aside, Chem.Comm results will be out on Fri. Gahh stressed. Hopefully we get in seh. I miss the crazy and high experience. I wanna have crazy scripts. I wanna have cool powerpoints. I wanna have high rehearsals. I wanna have rocking finals. Grant us a chance, a chance to storm that stage and go high all over again. Dun let this acetylcholine-overload end!

2009-04-13T22:13:00.013+08:00

Heyyo, time to get down to blogging.

Th prev week really was an enjoyable one:

Mon was NAPFA (no MATH TEST :)

Tues was CCA

Wed was MATH TEST ):

Thurs was PULAU SEMAKAU ((:

Fri was Chem.Comm rehearsals + 4A outing

Sat was Chem.Comm + VJC trg

Sun was library :D

Totally enjoyed Pulau Semakau. Yes, i know I should kill myself for not bringing Lumix baby along. What a waste, those scenaries! Oh well.

But I must admit, it is the best local learning journey I ever had. I mean, think about those oh-so-corny learning journeys to heritage sites teaching us everything we alr know. This is different. It dispelled the myth tht landfills stink (they are actually cleaner and greener than mainland for plants were ground atop filled cells), offered a great ride out to sea, taught me to be environmentally friendly and the joys of cam-gigging.

Initially, it seemed rather sian but the boat ride alone was great in tht we explored several sights like southern isles and sentosa cove (the sleek condos!). Nvr knew Singapore was so nice. && we spotted curtains of rainfall showering down on the mainland. How cool is tht! Distinct, individual rainstorms. & yes, wind energy exists n Singapore (for 12 lampposts tht is) on P.Semakau! Enough said, let the pictures do it:

Class photo! Thanks alot Xu Ling!

4A guys! The bathroom was great! Wasted didnt take photos. Air-con spacious environs.

Thanks for the pic, Pearlyn!

Went to Mdm Ong's to prepare for Chem.Comm on Fri. Haha so fun. With all tht accents, pizza and suaning. Lols. Went to Plaza Sing to catch Fast & Furious 4 with yj, bryce, wx, pf, yx, pearlyn & ethel. The show was rather gd. Shopped for Pearlyn's present after that & rushed home for dinner. Sorry everyone :P

Sat was Chem.Comm. Rehearsed in LT1 from 7.30 to 8.45 then went home to get science notes for VJC trg. Watched MTV, blog-hopped and reviewed 2A photos with zq too. & slurped cappuccino. Oh the mmrs!

Chem.Comm presentation at NUS was rather alright but Q&A was full of hesitation (tho we ended up almost right). Hopefully we get in! Gta live up to our snrs' standards! & yes, VJC trg was a series of crash courses on bodily systems, Nuclear Physics and Chemical Equilibria. & thr's more tmr! :O

"Somehow, I hope we'll be a class, nt a collection of cliques. Is tht too much to ask for? I feel so empty each time we go out to the movies. Where's the supposed bond? Maybe cuz it's 4A."

2009-04-08T21:11:00.002+08:00

10 random facts of the day:

1. Screwed up Math test badly. Too careless. Too lazy.

2. Miss Eu's cheesecake rawks! Thanks alot Ms Eu (:

3. YOG launch was rather successful.

4. Recess was expensive.

5. Math was enlightening (in a rare occurance of events)

6. Lang Arts was "Huh..." *Yawns* (like for the 1st time)

7. I was late for SMP which btw, was awkward.

8. Cappuccino rules!

9. I love teaching Bio ("big fat droplet, small fat droplet" x5)!

10. Tomorrow's class (i hope) dinner :D

2009-04-08T20:48:00.005+08:00

Saturday was NUS Geography Challenge! Haha we got this orange "I am a Geography Challenger" tee. Liked the slogan but the sponsors' logos at the back made it look so tacky. But I understand... must publicise for the sponsors.

Set off from NUS with Fang Qi, Kathy, Steph (Ah Gee. Lol! Her name gt typo) & Ruo Qi. Our stops were: ACM, Tiong Bahru Market, Botanical Gardens, NMS and Bras Basah Complex. The clues were issued after you completed each stn which was a series of questions incl fieldwork (like visiting exhibits and interviews) and application (like how wld you promote this district to be an arts & heritage district) ones. The clues were like alpha-numeric codes, photos, prose etc.

Chiong-ed on board the MRTs and buses. Lol for the first leg, we always managed to catch the transport just on time. But lagged quite a bit aft the market cuz the botanic gardens clue was so difficult to decipher then eneded up missing the bus. Lol, we wanted to skip last stn and go back to NUS cuz scared exceed time limit. Turned out, it was the easiest stn (lucky didnt skip) but we returned 15mins late which means 7.5 marks gone.

Infinite thanks to:
Fang Qi for all tht leadership, "chiong!" " jiayou!" and running arnd memorising loads of info
Kathy for deciphering the street directory and bus guide & interviewing dialect/CL speaking hawkers
Steph for searching for obscure monuments, cheering the team on and helping Ruo Qi run faster
Ruo Qi for hunting down obscure places, deciphering codes (PRO) & putting in her very best to run even though she was breathless
Huimin for filming Geo-Ad with us and morally supporting us throughout (And staying on her toes in case one of us cmi)
& All 4 of you for taking the risk to chiong with me, running around collecting data, getting me food & for tricking me to reach 15mins earlier (tsktsk)

Indeed, GC09 was a great experience (even though I had to listen to 4 of them fan-girl constantly). We really did our best. We may not have gotten Top 10 for Geo-Ad but your efforts rly showed through (you can see our geo-ad on youtube. ACS Barker's & NUS High's were great, though nt v geographical. Yes, watch NUS High's. Hilarious). But then agn, we won Top 10 for Geo-Trail which rly filled me with intense satisfaction. All tht running (& transport fees) was worth it after all!

We did great!

Proud to proclaim: "I Love Geography!"
(& I may just consider Prof Huang's 1st advice)

2009-04-07T23:57:00.001+08:00

Wht a failure I've been.

2009-04-02T18:14:00.005+08:00

200th POST! *Balloons and streamers descend as a round of applause roars*

Monday was 2.4km run. Haha, managed to secure a B. Yeah, may not be very good to some of you. But B's always been my standard anyway. Jiayou to all those who have yet to take or are re-taking! Dun give up and push on. You'll make it.

Had ACJC Geography Quiz yst. Haha, yes, we emerged champs! I guess Mr Chan's less-study-less-stress strategy worked, trauncing muggerish styles. Haha see? Geography is not about memorising.

We (Gu Yue, Hui Shan, Ruo Qi, Evelyn, Xiao Hui, Yi Wei and I) managed to secure a big trophy for the school and 4 medals for us. :D They should have made 8 lah. Tsktsk. Evryone deserves equal credit. Eh no, greatest credit goes to Gu Yue for remembering all the Chinese cities, recent developments and statistics. Pro.

Recee-ed while waiting for the quiz to commence. Eye candy alert! Sometimes. Lol. The 1st round was oh-my-godly tough.

Ms Or said it was A Level Geog. No wonder. Slumping, composite volcanoes, landslides, shallow focus etc. And I forgot how to calculate wetted perimeter. Yes, I must have been the dumbest to get tht simple qn wrong. Hope Ms Tan doesnt see this! :P Or else GG.

Had refreshments after tht (which was one of Mr Chan's purposes of coming cuz even if we dun win, still got free food. LOL). We were uber worried abt the results cuz if we dun do well, we will get kicked out. Huishan and I kinda made a bet that if we didnt get thru, we shall all drown ourselves in the swimming pool. Cuz it wld have been so embarrassing and unbecoming.

"River Valley High!"
Bursts of elation and cheers from us. Mr Chan got GY and I to go for 2nd round, where we were teamed with Chung Cheng High (Main). Got first question wrong and was quite demoralised. Haha but with their great knowledge & GY's, of China and stats, we managed to secure a spot in the finals.

Finals was between ACS (I), CCH (M), NYGHS and RVHS. Hui Shan and Yi Wei joined us on stage for this round. Haha, I lagged in putting up the answer during the first question. It was supposed to be a rapid fire round but in the end, everyone waited for the emcee to say "1,2,3" after 30s then we put up. How childish it must have looked. Hui Shan managed to get the Tokyo Subway question right based on her not-so-clear impression of it when she was in Tokyo. Pro-ness. After 15 questions, we were the only school to have a positive score (+1 or +2 i think). The rest were btw 0 and -2. What you want? Wrong answer, -1. Correct answer, +1. 15 questions.

Were over the moon and excited when we were crowned Champions of ACJC Geography Quiz 2009. Took team photo and left with full satisfaction. Guess we managed to live up to the standards our snrs set for us. Way to go, RV! Hopefully next year's team will help us to defend and maintain that title. Then you will see "River Valley High School" appearing twice on the Champion trophy. Honestly, I never thought we would have gotten it when I first stepped into the LT. It seemed so distant, so out of reach. But we still got it, people. You guys did great!

2009-04-02T18:01:00.003+08:00

Finally found some time to blog (Yes, I shall procrastinate studying for Physics test)

Saturday was Earth Hour. Shut all the lights at home to vote for Earth. Yes, global warming's a very real issue. Freak weather, rising sea levels, ozone layer depletion. It's all happening. Eventually Singapore will suffer too.

"Save the Earth! Stop global warming"
- adapted from RVHS' NSC Script

That aside, I really found peace and relaxation during Earth Hour. Not only cuz I know I'm making a statement against global warming, but also because it tends to slow my lifestyle down. Like I dun have to worry abt doing hw cuz gt no lights. Somehow forces me to relax. The emotional shift was rly apparent: Like when there was no lights, I was relaxed. When the lights were turned on, the hw mania starts: stress.

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Sun was spent at Taman Jurong doing Door-to-Door visits to interview residents if they needed govt aid in any area (find jobs, financial aid etc), on behalf of the RC/CC/CDC there. Really learnt to appreciate my parents better esp from the case of the depressed mother who has 2 unfilial and lazy daughters (but 1 young and obedient one) and who has to raise them by herself with food from neighbours. Forced to endure the hardship by herself (2 daughters cldnt be bothered), it really dawned upon me how much parents loved their children to go thru anything for them. Perhaps it's time I learnt to treasure my parents and help them whenever I can.

Tht aside, was grouped with yb and 2 other students from nus medicine. One of them was really pro. He examined the hands of a resident with high blood pressure to ascertain his illness, checked thru medical history, recommended medical schemes to residents and even checked the medication. All this when he is just a student. Pei4 fu2 pei4 fu2. But he said medicine was hard to get in. I managed to apply some knowledge from bio there, to understand some diseases the patients suffer from.

"Dun say you can't get in. I thought so, but still, I got in. It's really not impossible."

2009-03-24T20:23:00.004+08:00

Heyyo!

The best thing this week was probably the completion of Geo-Ad for NUS GC! Infinite thanks to Fang Qi for staying up past midnight for 3 consecutive days just to get it done. & of course for tahan-ing the dumb dumb software (+ those extra kilos from stress-induced gorging. Lol sounds so scientific). Thanks to Kathy for bearing with dumbo Flash to do the animation, Hui Min for the music, Steph and Ruo Qi for the reviewing. It was a great experience I bet.

Lol I won't upload the video unless it gets a high score. So pray hard if you wanna see it. Lol. But I shall wait for NUS to upload it to youtube then I link cuz now, the file is too big to be uploaded to Blogger. Good things come with patience. (If we score well tht is!) Ok, enough egocentric talk.

Gtg read up for ACJC Geog Quiz. Geography of China! of Japan! of Hong Kong! of Korea! of Taiwan!

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Part C guys, it's the final lap. It's the final challenge. It's the final experience.

I know loads of ppl look down on you guys and are super disappointed in you guys. But hey, prove them wrong! Your platoon may not cooperate but if you take the first step, u change yourself. Then you may be able to influence others. It all starts with you. And only you. No one else can help you now; your PC and APC have rly done their best and still the situation deproves.

I dun wish to have to deny you guys the positions or ranks. But if you guys can prove yourselves worthy and competant, I'll be more than happy to hand over the company to you guys. C'mon guys, it aint that difficult if you start listening and start being receptive to comments.

Simple things like turning up for activity, turning up for competitions, listening to advice, helping your platoon mates who face problems in CCA, improving your personal drills, not talking back o your specialists. I dun have to list everything out cuz I know you guys know what they are. If you dun, ask, it's not to late. If you do, please (& I mean PLEASE) practise them. You arent incapable, you just dun find that motivation. But once you start and some (or even most) get influenced, your platoon's morale will rise and you will definitely enjoy CCA.

It all lies in your hands. You decide the outcome. You pilot the future of RVNCC.

Jiayou! I'll be behind you guys. I'll wait for the day you guys achieve. I'll do my best to help you guys. I will.

"Will you guys promise to do your best?"
"Yes Sergeant Major!"
Honour those words. Do your very best. Don't hold back.

2009-03-20T18:20:00.002+08:00

Woke up at freaking 7.45am to the alarming alarm from my phone nestled comfortably on my pillow.

Went down to school for training for ACJC Geography Quiz. I really gotta buck up and study my notes! Nearly flunk the mock test I think. Tho I managed correctly guess some of my answers. & I thought Harajuku was the place for Otakus. Anyway, I am just gonna get some time to study for it and hopefully get into the Finals with the team.

Afterwhich, went down to URA Gallery with Mr Chan, Mr Hor, Ms Or and the rest of the NUSGC team. Shucks I dun wanna go back there anymore. Yes it's beautiful and amazing. But tht's precisely why I dun wanna go back there. Cuz I'll get enticed into moving to all the various places like Punggol for its scenic waterfront living and Jurong for the new hub chock-full of entertainment! Maybe I shall work there some day and amaze myself with the possibilities (& entice other people to move houses).

Had Mac's at Tiong bahru with the NUSGC team and ironed out some details for Geo-Ad. It'll be great! Jiayou with Flash, Kathy. Jiayou with Movie Maker, Fang Qi. Jiayou everyone! Rushed down to DSO later for some security briefing which was basically 3 of us sitting there listening to some security officer go on about camera phones and camera lenses and document bans.

& now, I'm back home procrastinating over my HCL homework. I shall do Biomed first, then LA, then SS, then Geog, then HCL (Tho I think I will do in the opposite order cuz of priority. Dang it. I.Hate.HCL.Homework.Period.)

2009-03-20T00:34:00.004+08:00

Back from hiatus.

Not really hiatus since it was almost all work no play:
1. UG Camp from Fri to Sun
2. Advanced Drill Course from Mon to Thurs

UG Camp was rather alright. Standard was just nice given tht the experience wasnt so traumatic for certain platoons. I mean, nacistic treatment will only scare people off, esp Part As. But I'm proud of Part As! They managed to survive bunk check TOGETHER and in the end felt THAT sense of satisfaction. Kendrick and David, you've done well so continue the good work! That aside, admin was a little screwed as the files wont ready on time, training was fine and logi was great except for field cooking. Best cadet interview was woah. Shant go on further. No point. Will do AAR with Delta instead.

Bt nvrtheless, great job RVNCC (I mean it): Specs for cooperating and trying your best ot pull things together and the cadets for your obedience and hard work. Qiao Wei, dun stress! Lol, she was so worried about the schedule I bet she didnt sleep well. Shld rly thank her for doing prog while I settled admin and logi.

ADC was alright. I know I'm supposed to miss it since it's my last NCC Camp (probably). While I do miss it a little, somehow it dosent have that deep impression or post-camp blues as in Senior Specialists' or Specialists'. And do you know how you'll feel an immense sense of achievement and pride after you have achieved something? Somehow I didnt. Not even the lanyard gave me that feeling. I wonder.

ADC 09: Chikong! Had a great time with you guys esp crapping all the way. Jiayou with your units and hope to see you guys soon around HQ or in parades (if I have the time to go down)! Special thanks to the instructors for their hilarious "bloody hell!" series and of course passing of knowledge to noobie me, and samuel and hafiz for that hilariously horny talk!

That aside, ADC was unique in that we learnt stuff we usually wont: Sword drills (I kissed a sword! Oh baby. Almost.), Colours drill (the Colours pole owns the shyt outta your arm muscles!), rifle drills (I want SAR21 drills)! Maybe it's time RVNCC edited her training regime.

Anw, saw loads of ICEP USA 08 people while I was in HQ during ADC: Kailin, Annisa, Ken, Jun Hong and Adrian. & cheer up, tkl! Fight on like that self-righteous tkl we knew! ICEP USA 09 - RVNCC Part C: get a spot and continue the tradition. Jiayou!

"Think straight,
We are ahead.
Up chest,
We are the best."

2009-03-10T20:49:00.007+08:00

Geography Week update!

Featuring...

The white cliffs of Dover, England!

(Courtesy of: http://farm1.static.flickr.com/119/290719612_5a27cbaf61.jpg)

Yes, your eyes are not deceiving you, they really are white. Standing juxtaposed against the turquoise sea, these cliffs are mainly composed of limestone (calcium carbonate) which explains their white colour.

The cliffs were formed due to erosion (by solution of CaCO3 as well as hydraulic action and abrasion) at the base of an elevated piece of land / headland. As the base gets undercut, a cave is cut into the limestone. Continual erosion enlarges the cave until so much limestone is lost such that the overhanging portion of the cliff collapses, giving the steep slided cliffs we see here.

Yet another wonder of Geography - its picture-perfect sceneries.

2009-03-10T00:55:00.005+08:00

RVians Jiayou:

NUS Geography Challenge - I know it's very taxing and difficult to meet up to film and prep it up. But hey, let's go crazy and give it our all alright? Jiayou! We got past the evil MCQs, fun AQ, now it's Geo-Ad and Geo-Trail. It's too late to give up or slacken. & did I mention I saw Jiawen at NUS that day? Heh, cheer up! :D

March Camp - Part Ds jiayou! Let's do this once and well. Together, we can. Qiaowei, Joycelin and Wei Qiang: Sorry for leaving you guys with so much work as I was busy with Freestyle, GC and GQ; I'm trying to catch up and do as much as I can to compensate. Juniors: Dun get too uptight. Think of it as a challenge you face - one you would tackle and win!

ACJC Geography Quiz - Jiayou with the deep and wide content! Let's live up to the standards our seniors set for us!

Chem.Comm - Let's do our best to entertain our way thru it and impressing whoever's in our way (and the judges too)! Hope we will work well together in spite of our busy schedules.

2009-03-09T18:44:00.005+08:00

Heyyo! Today was ok lah. Ate too full so i kinda vomitted during PE. Sianz. But everything else was alright. I really gotta improve on my hcl comprehension! If only it was as easy as LA...

Anw, time for the second part of my geography series. Today, we have *drum rolls*...

Aurora Borealis, also know as the Northern Lights!

Courtesy of: http://onemansblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/03/AuroraBorealis.jpg

These aurorae are usually found in the polar regions (in the arctic islands off Canada in this case), in the ionosphere - a layer of the atmosphere filled with ions.

1. Aurorae are formed when charged particles from the Sun (electrons / protons) collide with atoms / molecules in the atmosphere.

2.As they have higher energies than solar wind, the particles are trapped by the Earth's magnetic field.

3. Under a southward magnetic field, the particles charge towards Earth and collide with particles in the upper atmosphere which in turn excites them.

4. The excitation energy is released as light energy, giving us the colours of the aurorae: green or red for atomic oxygen and deep red or bright blue/violet for N2 or nitrogen ions.

Well, complex as it sounds, it's just a mass of collisions among charged particles in the upper atmosphere to release light energy that well-fascinates one with the wonders of geography - its aesthetically pleasing masterpieces.

Aurora borealis levitating over Earth, in its alieny green ensemble.

Courtesy of: http://www.noncombatant.org/trove/aurora-borealis.jpg

2009-03-08T14:32:00.010+08:00

Recently, I've been crazy over Geography. I dont know why. Maybe cuz I may not be able to study it next year. Maybe cuz of nusgc. Idk why. So anw, I shall attempt to launch a week-full of Geography posts and photos. Here's the 1st of the series:

12 Apostles. Victoria, Australia.

(Courtesy of: www.machka.net/australia/12apostles.jpg)

Isn't the view great? Well these 12 Apostles are actually 12 limestone stacks formed due to wave erosion at exposed coasts. They used to be joined to the cliffs. Each started as a headland, and then into an arch as a cave eroded into the base of the headland, enlarges over time. Over time, so much rock gets eroded tht the arch loses support and collapses, forming a stack.

As of today, there are less than 12 (can't seem to find out how many actually) as some of them have collapsed or become submerged stumps due to continual erosion. Nevertheless, the panoromic scenery simply captures the wonders of Geography - the masterfully sculpted landforms.

2009-03-08T12:50:00.003+08:00

Hey there!

Was busy with freestyle the past few days. Had hiong trg on thurs, fri and sat.

Well, even though we didnt win yesterday, I guess it was a good lesson and experience. At least now I know how much you guys really care. This is only our first attempt. If we dun succeed this year, we can always try again next year. And we the stuff we learnt:
- More creativity
- Start planning earlier
- More rehearsals (full-attendance, full-dress)
- Proper training venues,

I am sure that with this same level of commitment or more, you guys will improve next year. Way to go, boys. We didnt fail. Yeah I know some of you guys, like BD, were really disappointed. But I hope this wont affect your morale in CCA but fuel your will to succeed in future. Jiayou!

Guess it'll be a busy week (and holidays) ahead.
Busy holidays? How ironic.
For next week, I'll be busy with NUSGC, SMP, CCA and MARCH CAMP(!!!)
Holidays' Mon to Thurs will be spent in HQ attending ADC and Fri will be spent in school preparing for ACJC Geog Quiz.
What a wonderful holiday. Perhaps I'm destined to be a workaholic.

2009-03-04T18:25:00.004+08:00

Finally found some time to blog.

Had NUS Geography Challenge on saturday at nus fass. The mcq test was damn difficult. Economic geog, geomorphology, hydrology etc. PPP? Mass movement? NATO? Thomas Maltus? OMG?

First thing when i got the paper? "Die!" But according to i-forgot-who, the questions were beyong uni standard, at least some are. No wonder they looked like Greek. Anw, AQ was alright.

But the best part was that we still managed to get in. Miracle. Well, since we got it, let's do our best for geo-ad and geo-trail and aim high, dream big! Cannot drop further anymore. Jiayou!

Subway-ed with david at suntec to celebrate our birthday and went to vivo to play PS3 and chill at starbucks. Simple and nice. And fun! He's pro at driving and he knows truckloads about cars. Went to The Line and Shangri-La for birthday dinner with my relatives. Waited for the bus for like 30 mins? Damn. Freaking. Pissed.

Yesterday was my birthday & david's. Happy belated birthday david. Thanks to all those who wished me happy birthday and sent me bday sms-es: ncc juniors, sc juniors, 4A, PA, best friend, seniors, ncc delta 09, people i havent contacted since galaxies ago . But most importantly, infinite thanks to the 4A guys for getting tht coffee cake and waiting for me for so long to celebrate with me! Rly a pleasant surprise I seriously appreciated and enjoyed. Didnt really expect it. And PA for singing tht song so loudly. Thanks! Haha.

Anw, gtg now. Lol, so abrupt. But seriously, bye.

"Am I in Heaven? Is this Heaven?!"
"River Valley High, late. Come from river somemore" (dun make fun!!!)

2009-02-26T17:20:00.008+08:00

To Pissed:

Ihave clarified the matter with Mystery Boy, one of the guys from the concerned class yesterday.

I shall clarify and please read word for word to avoid any misunderstandings:

I apologise NOT because I am humji or what. I apologised cuz I knew I was wrong for citing the wrong reasons (they did not cheat not cuz they wanted to get high marks but cuz the answers were placed on their tables). I apologise to the concerned class (I shall not disclose the identity but if you want, Pissed, I will. Just leave me a tag) for what I cited wrongly. However, the fact is the matter did happen, regardless of the reasons.

And besides, let me reiterate: I posted on the 3 classes cuz I was certain those comments were verified true since I was in one of those classes and I heard the other comments from the horse's mouth. I did not comment on your class NOT because I was implying you all cheated but because I heard about your class through rumours. Obviously, I did not want to accuse you guys wrongly so I declined to comment about you guys. Simple as that. And by doing so, can you tell me how I was wrong? Especially since I did not disclose your class' name and even declined to spread the rumour on my blog?

Well, Mystery Boy and I had a thrash-out last night and you stated your reasons. I accepted them and apologise in the below post. He agreed to let this matter rest when I posted. And I did. I know you are furious, feel wronged and humiliated for the wrong reasons cited, but I am sorry to your class as I am. And I dun want to strain the relations between us further. So shall we just let this matter rest and move on? Please reply through the tagboard. It may not work cuz of network errors (sorry) but do try so we can get this settled. And please, cool down or else we'll never get over this.

Lastly, please do me a favour and help me clear any misunderstandings amog your classmates. If there is anything, please leave me a tag and I'll reply asap.

2009-02-25T21:13:00.012+08:00

Sorry for you misunderstanding that I was implying about accusing your class but it really was not intentional.

I really had no intentions of accusing anyone cuz I just heard about 2 classes. What I heard about your class was rumours and I didnt post them cuz I did not want to accuse you guys wrongly.

(Sorry, I know you don't want any edits, but I really would like to get this off my chest & do not get offended: Please refrain from flaming or using vulgarities to champion your cause, especially here on my blog, Mystery Boy.)

P.S Mystery Boy, do tag if you are unhappy about the above comment in brackets. We will talk them out nicely.

2009-02-25T20:40:00.003+08:00

I'm really sorry if I implied about your class but hey, I already said in the post, not to blame me if I left out any classes. Please re-read carefully: "I have not heard of other involved classes so yea, dont get me wrong if I left you guys out". & note, I said "I have not heard", which means I did not know of any other classes involved in whatever ways. It does not mean that I purposely left some classes out or accussed any class.

In all honesty, it was really not deliberate as at that point of time, information was not as clear: rumours and all. Those I blogged about were heard by me, from the horse's mouth. Other rumours which I heard from other people, I did not post them cuz you know how controversial it can get right? So I was merely stating facts that I heard of, and avoided any rumours or possibly untrue stuff. So I really dont get how you arrived at the conclusion that I was accussing your class. Take things in context.

If you choose to think of it as a direct attack on your class, I guess whatever I say would help right? But I'd just like to let you guys know that whatever I said was in general cuz it's just what I heard so no offence intended. & I really had no idea your class was involved, seriously. So please do not take offence with regard to this matter. & please exercise courtesy and ascertain your ideas before jumping to conclusions. Thank you and do reply.